May Goals

I am quite aware that I missed my April blog. I kept meaning to write something, and then I just ended up too busy or too stressed out to write anything. I had planned on writing about future brides using feeding tubes in order to lose weight. I read about it briefly in a recent article, and it was quite fascinating and appalling at the same time. However, I have been stressing out about my own wedding plans, and every time someone even mentioned the word wedding, anxiety and stress started to kick in. I am not the "bride" type of girl. I have not been planning my wedding since I exited my mother's uterus, and quite frankly I'm not really enjoying any of it. Top that off with the fact that I get major anxiety when it comes to being in front of people, and you maybe start to get why I am stressed out. I am just not cut out for all of this. I would much prefer to just have a civil ceremony and take our immediate families out for a nice dinner. That is not happening, though we have made modifications to our wedding plans over the last week in order to help make it less of an ordeal for me and more a good time.

Anyways, I will probably write about this weird feeding tube thing soon, either this month or next month (maybe two blogs in one month? Eek!). However, in order to avoid wedding topics, I simply decided to write down my fitness goals for the month of May. So here they are:

1. Lift weights twice a week.--This will be very difficult for me. I abhor weight training. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it (this little mantra probably doesn't help matters either. I will have to be more positive.) In fact, I dislike this activity so much that I am giving myself an incentive to do it. I have wanted the new Trampled by Turtles album for a while now. If I can get through this month with lifting twice a week, I will by myself this album as a reward. I very rarely need to find an incentive to achieve exercise goals because just accomplishing them gives me a good high, but weights are evil.

2. Run twice a week.--I am coming off an injury, and I have not run for almost two months. I was supposed to be running Grandma's Marathon in June, but I am very doubtful I will be able to whip myself into proper shape for that event. But run twice a week. That I can do I think, provided my injury's status keeps improving.

So yes, two goals for this month, maybe not very ambitious to some people, but this whole weight lifting thing is going to be an awful challenge, so mostly I am concentrating on that. Bleck!